Getting Back Into My Activist Boots – 18.5.22

Hello everyone!

It’s that time again! That’s right, the Government wants to do some things that will make people’s lives more difficult, so I’m getting out my walking boots, big pieces of cardboard and poster paint and getting ready to be loud in public.

“But Blue, there’s so much to be mad about right now, what is it you’re talking about?”

Well that’s the terrifying truth, isn’t it, haha. 

Despite there being so much going on in the world that is just awful I’m currently focusing on a Bill in the UK that’s called the Online Safety Bill. This Bill has the potential to be devastating to those in the adult industry as well as those that wish to interact with the adult industry.

Seeing as the adult industry is my main source of income and if anything drastic changes then I could face being homeless I’ve moved this Bill to the top of my priority list for the time being.

So what’s it all about? What is the Online Safety Bill? Great questions and if I’m entirely honest, it’s 225 pages of legal jargon that I am continuing to struggle to fully understand. However the sections of the Bill that have me most concerned are the sections that talk about introducing age verification for porn (not an entirely bad thing, just a lot of problems need to be worked out), the potential removal of all online advertising of full service sex work (escort ads) and the fact that the Bill is so vague it could (and likely will) be used to harm people that aren’t doing anything wrong.

I know that’s not a fantastic explanation and I’m sorry I can’t give my usual in depth breakdown of this Bill but it’s honestly too much for one person to try and translate into common.

So instead of telling you everything about this Bill I’m going to tell you what I’m doing to get more on top of it and how you can potentially get involved.

First thing I did – with the help of a very wonderful friend, Jason Domino – was set up a group chat to get all of the people I could involved in the conversation of what we should do.

Then we got to work on picking out specific things that we need to focus on. Currently those things include:

  • Organising in person protests
  • Organising digital protests
  • Creating a piece of “written evidence” to submit to the Government as to why this Bill is potentially so dangerous
  • Connecting with more people to increase our numbers and have more support to tackle this Bill

So that brings me to the part where I tell you how to get involved ^_^

I can’t add everyone to a group chat – that would be far too much to handle – but I can set up a Slack channel (kind of like Discord but leaning more towards professionals) if I get enough interest from people to make it worthwhile.

I’ve also set up a really basic website that we’ll use to post all of our completed documents, graphics and information, so please do check it out (but be patient as it is extremely basic and a definite work in progress). The website is called Fight The Bill and I’ll likely continue to use it for multiple political campaigns so you can bookmark it for my next campaign too haha.

And as always with anything in life, financial support is always appreciated. Currently I’m the main person organising things in the group so I don’t have any separate donation pages set up yet, so if you feel like donating then please just use my usual links.

Once we have the details of the protests finalised (online and in person) then I’ll be sure to direct you all on how you can get involved with those. But they will be happening soon so please keep an eye out.

Having public support on topics like these can be the difference in whether we are taken seriously or not, so it really is important that you engage with this Bill if you can.

I know this was quite a big chunk of text to read and I’m sorry to dive straight into activism and politics before I’ve had a chance to share my London trip photos and thoughts but this is more important.

Hopefully in a week or two when more people are taking the lead on this I’ll be able to calm down a little and go back to posting more light hearted blogs haha.

Until then, Stay Safe & Be Happy x

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Unboxing My AoiPastel Kickstarter Rewards! – 11.4.22

Hello, humanoids of the internet!

Today the mail delivery person brought me something exciting, my Kickstarter rewards!

I backed AoiPastel’s Cute Skull Crossbody Bag Kickstarter in January 2021 ( and although Aoi has had to deal with a ton of difficulties since their project started I was always confident that the final product would be well worth waiting for.

And I was right!

Check out this adorable pastel goth ita bag and accessories!

Photo shows all of the rewards Blue received for the Kickstarter

Here’s a breakdown of all of the items I got as part of the Kickstarter:

  • Cute Skull Crossbody bag – with straps for backpack-style or crossbody style.
  • White skull insert
  • Pink skull insert
  • Purple skull insert
  • Pink bow
  • Purple bow
  • 2 x moon skull magical girl wand pin
  • 2 x star skull magical girl wand pin
  • 2 x crystal skull magical girl wand pin
  • Kickstarter exclusive print
  • Skull button badge
  • Thank you note

The bag itself is fantastic. The fabric inside the bag is really cute. The back pocket is great to have. The skull detail zippers are just adorable! And I love that it can be a backpack or a crossbody bag! 

Photo shows the inside of the bag

One of the things that I adore about this bag is the changeable clip-on accessories for the skull (there were other options available but I opted for the bows). I only wish there had been more colour options haha!

The other great thing is the different coloured skull inserts. It’s a feature that I really love to see in ita bag designs. It gives the bag more options and can mean that you can match it to several different looks which is always fantastic.

As some of you may already know, I love collecting pin badges and the pin badges that were part of this Kickstarter were just too cute! So I had to get 2 of each to make sure that I could gift one of each and keep one for myself haha. Which badge would you choose if you could only pick one?

One of the nicest things about buying from small sellers or Kickstarter projects is the personal touch and little extras. The print, skull button badge and thank you note were all really nice to get and really added a personal touch to the rewards. The other great thing about Aoi was that despite the difficulties they faced, they were brilliant at posting regular updates and keeping everyone informed. I genuinely think they did fantastically and I hope they are having a well-deserved rest now.

All in all I’m over the moon with my rewards and can’t wait to get out and get some photos of my new bag in use!

You can find and support Aoi on social media:

Instagram: @aoipastelpinclub

Twitter: @AoiLeeArt

Titok: @aoipastel 

Keep an eye out for when I do post more pictures because I’m sure they’re going to be adorable!

Thanks for reading. 

Stay Safe & Be Happy!

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Blue’s Birthday Month! – 13.1.22

Hello everyone!

January is my birthday month!

I like to take the whole month to celebrate so I have the highest chance of being able to celebrate my birthday with all of my friends, fans and loved ones ^_^ (that and I love to be a drama queen haha).

This year is another year where COVID19 worries have meant that my celebrations have been small and hesitant but that hasn’t stopped me from having a wonderful time.

Plus I got these fantastic gifts from my loved ones ^_^ so how could I possibly be upset? Haha.

I’ve still got some things that I’m trying to plan and get done this month to make sure I get to enjoy my birthday month as much as possible. One of these things is a super fun photo shoot! But I’ll tell you more about that later ;p

As it is my birthday I wanted to let you all know that I’m trying to raise money to get a new camera. I’m aiming for £800 so I have a bit of wiggle room and if I manage to raise any more than I need it will go towards things like memory cards or similar.

Picture shows the 3 main options of cameras that Blue is looking at for her new camera fund as well as a picture of Blue, edited to be wearing a party hat.

If you’re in a position to donate to my new camera fund that would be an amazing birthday present – of course there is absolutely no pressure. You can also check out my wish lists if that’s something you’d be keen to do as a birthday treat – again no pressure.

I’m going to keep the fundraiser up until I manage to raise enough money so if you do want to donate but January isn’t a good month for money, then I totally understand and you can always chip in later.

My hope is that when I get a better camera it will give me the extra boost of motivation I need to really stay on top of my vlogs. I do intend to go back to doing regular vlogs, I just have to sort out a bunch of admin, work and life stuff first haha.

So hopefully you’re having a lovely January and you’ll be able to join me in some way to celebrate my birthday (online events are in the works, more info asap) ^_^

Until next time, Stay Safe & Be Happy!

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Morality vs Profit in a Capitalist Society

Today, like most days lately, I saw conversations about NFT’s, Crypto and blockchain – the crowd I interact with is largely against NFT’s and Crypto so the conversations are usually quite short. But one of those conversations caught me off guard.

My Mum was asking if my sister (who’s an artistic individual) could make her an NFT. I immediately jump in and explain how bad NFT’s and Crypto are for the environment and send some links to articles with more information. My Mum says she’ll look into it and that she had no idea. Job done. Planet saved. Return to scrolling, right?

Well not exactly.

Despite knowing how bad crypto and NFT’s are I understand why some people are still using them. And I know that I’m a hypocrite because I do also own a small amount of crypto. Part of my journey of learning about cryptocurrency involved me buying some to see how easy it was to interact with. So can I really be so against something I’m taking part in?

And that’s where I spiralled off into a tangent that made me want to write this blog.

If you follow me then you’ll already know (and likely be sick of hearing me talk about) that I’m a Sex Worker. As part of being a Sex Worker, I’ve had to deal with financial discrimination, find different payment methods and figure out where I can actually make money from the content I make. It’s tricky and it just keeps getting more difficult the more moral panic and SWERF lead campaigns grow in strength.

One of the ways that Sex Workers have found to get around banking discrimination is to use cryptocurrency. Some Sex Workers have had great success selling their content as NFT’s. So on that occasion, I’m glad that NFT’s and crypto exist and are (mostly) accessible to the general public.

But that doesn’t change my mind about them being bad for the planet.

So then I’m faced with a moral quandary. Do I – as a Sex Worker – choose to engage with something that I know is harmful to the planet on the off chance that it will create profit for me? 

Something that could easily, in the next 10 years, become the only way I can be paid for my online content is hard to ignore. After all, I’m already in a situation where the only payment method available to me on PornHub is cryptocurrency. Of course, the fact that engaging with it will be directly engaging with something that is extremely harmful to our already damaged planet is also hard to ignore.

This isn’t the first time I’ve had to decide whether I choose morals or profit and I’ll bet there are plenty of self-employed people that have faced similar. Even as a consumer you’re always facing that problem. Just change “morality vs profit” to “morality vs affordability” and boom! Those clothes you bought from a fast-fashion outlet? Made in a sweatshop? Contributing to more material waste? Made from unethically sourced materials? A rip off of a design made by a small creator that can’t fight back against a big name corporation? I’m sure you get my point.

Usually my response – as a consumer – is to say that there is no ethical consumption under capitalism. But even then I try to shop local, buy from small shops or independent sellers, buy second hand and do what I can to make informed shopping choices. 

I’m constantly learning and doing what I can to improve my personal habits but it’s not easy and not everyone can afford to take that time or spend that extra money. So we’re back to the part where of course we make exceptions for those that need them.

You’ll likely have noticed that we’re going around this thought in a circle. I’m sorry to say I don’t really have an answer or a way to break this loop. My reasoning behind writing and sharing this blog is to remind people to think and to be understanding that other people might be in a situation where they have to choose profits over morals.

There will always be people that genuinely don’t care and would burn the world to make a quick profit. There will always be people that see the hype of something but don’t know the reality of it and maybe don’t have the time to sit and research all the ins and outs of a thing. There will always be people trying to do the “right” thing but unable to afford to do it 100% of the time. At the end of the day, we’re all doing the best we can to keep our heads above water and keep up to date with whatever the latest trend is.

So although there is no ethical consumption under capitalism and most big companies/the 1% will happily make profits at the cost of lives we still have to try and do our part to make things better.

That being said, join a union, support community groups, grassroots organisations, mutual aid groups, don’t cross picket lines and listen to the people that will be affected by policies that are being pushed through by anyone that takes on a “saviour” role.

Sorry, this got a bit heavy and a bit long but I feel like the title gave you a clear idea of what to expect.

Stay Safe & Be Happy x

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Thoughts & Memories Relating To My Sexual Health – 16.12.21

Content Note / Trigger Warning: This blog will discuss sexual health, interacting with medical professionals, relationships (good and bad), teenage pregnancy, abortion, sex work and stigma. (this is also quite a long blog)

Today I went for a sexual health check-up, as I do pretty much every month (as long as I can get an appointment). It was a perfect example of how well these appointments can go but also how much they can bring up that you might not think about. So I wanted to write this blog to talk you through my experience and what it’s brought up for me.

Let’s start at the beginning, to get my appointment I had to phone my local council’s sexual health appointment line and inform them that I am a Sex Worker and need a sexual health check-up. Why do I need to tell them that I’m a Sex Worker? Because right now the NHS is running at reduced capacity due to a combination of COVID19 and lack of funding. So walk-in clinics are not currently running and to try and get a “regular” appointment you have to call at 8 am to maybe get through to a receptionist in time to book an appointment that day – the same system that GP’s use here in the UK which cause’s thousands of people stress and upset every morning. So rather than stress me out and potentially not get an appointment I out myself to the NHS so I can be sure that I’m being safe and aware of my sexual health status.

So even before I’ve gotten to the clinic to get my check up I’ve had to deal with what it means to tell someone that I am a Sex Worker and to acknowledge that being a Sex Worker puts me in the high-risk category which means that I will be given an appointment as quickly as they are able. I have to deal with the fact that it is now recorded on my medical records that I am a Sex Worker. Luckily for me, I’m already out and have come to terms with the idea of being known as a Sex Worker but not every Sex Worker will be prepared to deal with that. It can be a lot to work through. There is so much stigma around being a Sex Worker, I mean let’s be honest, there’s so much stigma around going for a sexual health test, to begin with so being categorised as high risk doesn’t feel great on top of that. But it’s ok, I’ve done it before and I’m ok.

Skip ahead to today, walking to my appointment and trying to drink enough water to make getting blood taken easy but not so much that I’ll be bursting for a pee before I arrive. Get to the clinic, get called in and sit in the waiting room, then on to see the nurse. All very quick, friendly and totally normal. It turns out there’s a second nurse shadowing today so I get double the chat whilst we go through the usual questions, swabs and blood test options. The lead nurse is a lovely woman that I had seen many times before (pre-covid) at the regular walk-in clinics and she is delightful to chat to and catch up with. She’s also checked my file before I’ve arrived and has noticed that I’m due my booster for my Hepatitis B vaccine, which is great because I have no way of checking that, so she gets that organised. We even get to have a funny moment where the first injection malfunctions and spills the contents down my arm – surprising everyone in the room. Then after the booster is successfully injected she informs me that my Mirena coil (my birth control) will expire in February 2022 and asks if she should add me to the waiting list for an appointment to get a replacement – I say yes and that’s all taken care of. She let me know that I’ll likely not get an appointment by February but that I can go onto the pill (a different type of birth control) from February until I get the replacement. We then move on to the usual questions: how many sexual partners, when did I last have sex, any unprotected sex, have I been forced to have sex or experienced any sexual abuse – all the routine questions I get asked at every check-up. That’s all fine, I get given my swabs and sent to the bathroom to take them myself – no problems there. Hand the tubes back and present my arms to see if any of my veins will be suitable for taking blood – I have tiny thin veins so it’s quite common that I end up having blood taken from the veins on the back of my hands. No luck with arms so it’s a hand vein for my blood today. As the second nurse is taking my blood (with help from the lead nurse since it’s my hand and that’s fiddly) we’re making small talk – she’s asking after my partner and asking how we’ve been through COVID19, the usual sort of COVID19 chat and then she asks a little about my sex work and my charity work – all perfectly happy and polite whilst they’re both taking my blood. It’s quite a funny image now that I’m describing it haha. She asks if I’m safe and is clearly concerned and empathetic but I reassure her I’m as safe as I can be and manage to stop myself from diving into my usual rant about how decriminalisation of sex work would make me safer but it’s so nice to see her caring and not judging or trying to tell me that I need to stop. I ask if there have been any updates on the possibility of getting PrEP (pre-exposure prophylaxis is a daily pill that can help prevent a person from contracting HIV) and she informs me that there have been no changes and that I still wouldn’t be eligible to be prescribed it but she says that it can be purchased online. Then they finish up taking my blood, all the vials are labelled and packaged up, I get some free condoms and my patient card that has my patient number and the results line phone number on it and sent on my way. 

Easy peasy. In and out in around 20 minutes. So why did I feel the need to write a blog about this?

Well, there are a few reasons. First of all, to highlight how straightforward going for a sexual health checkup can be. It doesn’t have to be some terrifying thing that you endure. Especially if you get to see well-trained staff that know how to be friendly and professional. 

Secondly, I wanted to highlight that getting an appointment (in parts of Scotland at least) right now is needlessly complicated and has meant having to out myself to be seen in a reasonable amount of time. The UK Government has pledged to end new transmissions of HIV by 2030* and likely has made similar pledges to reduce numbers of people testing positive for other sexually transmitted infections and blood born viruses but if people are struggling to access testing then how are we ever going to meet those goals? Some people might be able to pay to get an STI test privately but that can cost up to £99.95** depending on what test you buy. Realistically more needs to be done to provide free sexual health testing and that starts by funding the NHS.

Thirdly, I wanted to highlight that there are nurses and medical professionals that do excellent work and really make me feel safe interacting with the NHS as a Sex Worker. Both of the nurses that I interacted with were lovely, neither of them was judgemental and I left feeling positive about the entire experience. Especially since she had been proactive in mentioning my Hep B booster and my Mirena coil expiring.

However, the last thing I wanted to talk about is the unexpected consequence of my check-up today. This is the point where I discuss things that are not so cheerful so feel free to stop reading now.

This was primarily brought on by the mention that my Mirena coil*** is due to be replaced. Which means having to go in and get the old one removed and a new one put in. For those that don’t know, the Mirena coil is inserted into the womb and then left for 5 years/until removal to prevent pregnancy (amongst other things). It’s a very simple procedure and done whilst your awake, usually you won’t be given any numbing or painkillers – it’s very similar to a smear test in many ways. The procedure itself isn’t absolutely awful, it’s uncomfortable and so far I’ve had horrible cramps after it’s been done but it’s bearable. What makes this a talking point is the memory of why I first got the Mirena coil. When I was seventeen I had a boyfriend, the relationship was very toxic and I faced a lot of mental abuse but then I got pregnant. So I was faced with the dilemma that all teenage pregnancies face, do I keep the child or do I get an abortion? My boyfriend very much wanted to keep the child, he definitely saw this as his golden ticket to keeping me forever. I had a bit of mental breakdown over what this would mean for me either way and eventually decided that I would get an abortion. My Mum, school nurse, head teacher (probably most of the teachers, let’s be honest) and my boyfriend were the only people that knew. When I went to get the termination (as they called it) I was alone, my Mum dropped me off but then had to go to work. I was left in a room by myself after the nurses inserted the medication to wait for everything to pass. It was painful and lonely. I paced the room trying to take my mind off of everything. I’d be doubled over in pain from cramps and then hear footsteps so I’d stand up straight and smile as a nurse appeared at the door’s window to check in on me. I told myself that I deserved any pain that I got because I’d been stupid enough to get myself into this situation. I was bleeding and passing clumps of blood/lining all day but by the end of the day I hadn’t passed enough so I was kept overnight. After I was released the next day I went back to school. Still bleeding and feeling as if parts of my womb were falling out of me every few hours. After that I went for a check up to make sure everything had gone smoothly and it turned out there was still a lot of lining stuck so I would have to be put under local anaesthetic to have everything cleaned out properly. So that was another day off school, alone, in pain and spiralling into some pretty horrible thoughts. But the one thing that always gets me is that when the nurse gave me my gown she didn’t help me with it or offer any kind small talk. I’d never had an operation or worn a hospital gown before so I had no idea how to tie it – when my Mum saw it she immediately said it was done wrong and I explained I’d done it myself, she seemed quite surprised. I don’t know why that always sticks out so much but I guess it’s just one of those things. But the procedure went smoothly, everything was fine and they’d inserted the Mirena coil for me as well whilst I was asleep. So life went back to normal. Back at school, the headteacher asked to chat with me to check-in, so I put on a brave face and tried to make light of the situation not wanting to admit how awful I felt. He then got upset with me for the way I chose to speak about what I had just gone through, saying his wife had had to have a similar procedure and that I should be more considerate…Me, the seventeen-year-old that’s just faced a termination on her own and was having a horrible time mental health-wise, should be more considerate of his feelings about his wife’s procedure. But I didn’t say anything, just apologised and went back to class. You’ll be horrified to know that I stayed with that boyfriend for nearly a year after that. But eventually, I moved on, met the person that became my current partner – granted I dated a few more idiots in between. However, over all that time I told only a small handful of people that I had been pregnant and had gotten an abortion. It was still so upsetting to talk about. It is still so upsetting to talk about, I’ve cried whilst I’ve written the majority of this section. And all of this has been brought up by the simple mentioning of needing to schedule an appointment to get the Mirena coil changed. And that’s me leaving out the horrible relationship stuff. It’s a lot.

It’s also something I had no idea that I would be thinking about today or having to deal with all of the complicated emotions attached to it. So it’s completely thrown me off from whatever I had planned for the rest of my day.

Isn’t it funny that you can have a very pleasant experience but still be in tears because of something that was brought up during it?

So you might be wondering why I’m sharing this publicly when I’d been so private about it before, in all honesty, I think it’s just another thing that I have to let myself be open about to be able to really heal. Sometimes to move on from something properly you have to actually face it head-on again years later. Plus it’s good to let people know that they aren’t the only ones to have faced things like this. And to highlight where we need to try harder to make people feel cared for. Because of the fact that I was allowed to go through all of that entirely on my own, with no counselling being offered after, with a horribly manipulative boyfriend making me feel even worse and no empathy/understanding from the one teacher that did check in on me has been the most difficult part of the entire experience.

So let’s take this story as a reminder that no matter how brave a face someone is putting on, let’s not leave people alone to deal with their problems and let’s actually check in on them and ask them how they are.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. If you have any questions about sexual health please contact your local sexual health practice or consult official medical resources.

Until next time,

Stay Safe & Be Happy x

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