BlueMerkitten’s Virtual Easter Egg Hunt! – 20.3.21

Hello all!

With it now officially being Spring and Easter just around the corner I’m excited to announce my online virtual Easter egg hunt!

Starting from Monday 22nd you’ll be able to find hidden Easter Merkittens around my website and across all of my social media accounts. There will be 15 Easter Merkittens in total but their release will be staggered over the 13 days so you’ll have to be sure to check back every so often if you want to find them all!

Once you find an Easter Merkitten, it will link you to a google form that will have one question and a way to submit your email address (be sure to use the same email address each time).

Whoever gets the most questions right will be our winner!

Other than bragging rights, you might be wondering what the winner of this virtual egg hunt gets. Well, I’m excited to tell you that there will actually be three winners!

The first-place winner will get a £25 Etsy gift card & an Easter egg of their choice.

The second-place winner will get a £15 Etsy gift card and an Easter egg of their choice.

And finally, the third-place winner will get an Easter card and an Easter egg of their choice.

This virtual egg hunt is open to anyone from anywhere in the world, however, due to the way Etsy gift cards work I will be unable to change the currency. But I will happily discuss options with the winners if they end up not being from the UK.

Be sure to check out the virtual egg hunt main page – HERE – for updates and more information.

Good luck everyone!

Stay safe & be happy x

Meds & Mental Health 12.3.21

Hey all!

So today I was going to be filming my kitten play and pokemon video for my YouTube channel. It’s a video I’ve been pretty excited to film and was all dressed up and ready to go.

But I had a few tiny interruptions as I got started filming.

Absolutely nothing major. Bouncer mucking around, my partners chiming in with comments. Totally normal and fine interruptions that I deal with all the time.

The only problem being that today it totally knocked me off-kilter. My confidence vanished, I got emotional, I had to stop filming and do housework instead to try and calm myself down and to stop me from crying.

This, in case you didn’t realise, is not normal for me.

I only cry at sad movies/books/media and very occasionally from severe emotions.

But for the last hour, I’ve been fighting off tears and trying not to ruin my mascara.

My mental health over the last few weeks has been an absolute roller coaster and last week I got switched to a new medication (fluoxetine 20 mg – if you’re curious) and it’s hit me really heard. I’ve been having intermittent headaches, struggling to focus and having bouts of nausea. Not in the least bit of fun. And now, I’m getting emotional over nothing and almost breaking down into tears.

It’s not a pleasant sensation and it’s difficult for me to focus on the things I need or want to do – like filming my kitten play and pokemon video.

So yeah, I’m finding things a tiny bit difficult at the moment and I hope that everyone can bear with me.

I also know that there are so many people that are struggling for so many reasons right now and my heart goes out to them. It seems to just be a really difficult time at the moment.

Look out for each other and remember to be patient with everyone that you interact with – you have no idea what’s going on in their private life and no right to know either.

I will get this video filmed, I’m just not sure if it will be today. So I’m posting this blog, mostly for myself and to let myself be open and honest about how I’m feeling in a way that let’s other people interact if they want to.

Yelling into the void was always something I found useful, so this is sort of an extension of that.

I hope everyone is holding up as best they can and that you’re excited for when I do post this video. Until then;

Stay safe & be happy x

International Women’s Day & The Sex Worker Strike – 8.3.21

Hello all!

Happy International Women’s Day!

For those that don’t know, the 8th of March is International Women’s Day (International Men’s Day is the 19th of November). It’s a day to acknowledge all of the work done by women, the progress that women have made in all areas of life and to fight for women’s rights. I also want to take a moment right now to say that trans women are women and we celebrate them too.

Since 2019 it has also been a day to strike from work – whether that’s your day job, your housework, or sex work – women across the world are encouraged to take a stand and say “not today”. The point is to show how crucial women’s work is, especially the work that goes unseen and unpaid by society. And in the specific case of sex work, it’s our way to stand up for our rights and our desire to see our work decriminalised as well as having it recognised as being work.

I say “our” because I am a woman and a Sex Worker.

Of course, this isn’t a day to exclude our allies who wish to support us. Everyone is encouraged to stand in solidarity with women and with Sex Workers.

Let’s talk a little bit more about the Sex Worker Strike as I’m sure that’s why most of you are still reading.

If you’ve been following me for any length of time then you’ll know that I am a Sex Worker and I’m not shy about telling people that. However, I am very privileged to be able to be that open about my work. Many Sex Workers have to keep their work secret for fear of the stigma and prejudice that is attached to sex work. Many can’t tell their friends or family for fear of rejection and lack of understanding.

Sex work is a topic that evokes a variety of responses: some will turn their nose up and disengage, others will want to take on the role of saviour for the “poor exploited women” and some will feel too awkward and uneducated to even consider participating in the discussion.

That’s why things like the Sex Worker Strike are so important.

They get the Public’s attention. It’s a lot easier to engage in a conversation when there are thousands of online posts or videos being shared that tell you everything you need to know and more.

Today you will come across posts that explain why decriminalisation is so important and why sex work deserves to be treated like any other work (spoilers, decriminalisation is for safer working conditions and treating it like work reduces stigma). You should treat it as an opportunity to educate not only yourself but your friends and family too.
“But Blue! I can’t share this with my best friend/Mum/Gran!?” – this may be the response that some of you have when presented with the idea of talking about sex work in your own social circles.

My response is simple, why not?

Are you afraid they’ll alienate you? Worried they’ll think you are a Sex Worker? Do you think they’ll react negatively and that your relationship with them will have to change?

Congratulations, you’ve just got a tiny glimpse into the life of a Sex Worker!

We ask our friends, family and allies to help us tackle the stigma around sex work by having these conversations. Sharing information and taking the time to educate not just yourself but your peers.

As the saying goes, “someone you love is a Sex Worker”, imagine how much more comfortable they would be to see you standing up in support of them. They’d be able to see you as a safe person, someone they can talk to and maybe even come out to. It makes an incredible difference and it’s so easy to do.

So for this IWD and SW Strike, I encourage you – my readers – to educate yourself and others. Share a post from a Sex Worker led group on your Facebook/Twitter/Instagram or send them to this blog.

Let’s spread compassion and understanding today.

Stay safe & be happy!

Saying Goodbye To 2020

Hello all!

Here we are, at the end of another year but oh my goodness what a year it’s been!

Living through the COVID19 Pandemic is bound to end up being something that gets taught in schools at some point or another and it’s been so bizarre to be trying to lead a semi normal life whilst there’s this “thing” just hovering over the planet and forcing us all to change how we do everything.

I know I’ve had to make a lot of changes this year.

The most obvious change being that I’ve had to stop doing photo shoots for basically the entire year. Which considering I’m a model and make money off of my images…that was a difficult transition.

My wedding has had to be postponed indefinitely.

We couldn’t have proper celebrations for Halloween, my fiancé’s birthday, or Christmas. The kink events I was going to be hosting this year all had to be cancelled. My trip to London to get my training to become a tester for THT got cancelled. There’s so much that had to be cancelled or put on hold and of course I understand why but it does still make me sad.

This year has been weird and I’m not sure that next year will be much different but at least I feel more prepared and will feel comfortable (mostly) sticking to online socialising.

Fingers crossed I will be able to go back to having proper photo shoots again soon though. Selfies are fine but they definitely are not the best.

But enough about the less than amazing side of things. Let’s look at the positives!

Some of My Favourite Things of 2020

I started working for Umbrella Lane:

I love my job with Umbrella Lane – I really feel like I get to contribute and that I’m an important member of the team. My work mates are wonderful. There’s always something to be done and it’s a very passionate topic for me so it’s far too easy to stay focussed and really put my all into everything we’re doing.


Although I’ve had to change how I keep in touch with people and severely limit my physical contact with others, this year has been really good for me to be able to work on boundaries, figuring out what I want from relationships and who I want to be in a relationship with.

Whether it’s friendships, romantic relationships or sexual relationships. It’s been so interesting to have time apart forced on me to give me perspective. To see who I end up missing and who I want to reach out to. Plus seeing who reaches out to me.

Being poly, bisexual and an extrovert should give you a clear enough idea that I like being with people. I like having connections with people and building relationships. But sometimes I let myself get burnt out trying to sustain relationships that I don’t even want anymore and I think this time “on my own” has really helped to highlight that (that and my wonderful therapist).

It’s also really made me appreciate the relationships I do have.

I have a wonderful fiancé that supports me to do whatever I want to do and always has my back or a cup of tea when I’m stressing out. I have a lovely boyfriend who keeps me smiling and reminds me that I don’t have to take care of everyone else. I’ve got the most adorable fuck buddy/boyfriend/insert label here??? that’s just so soft and sweet and helpful. I’ve got brilliant friends that will check in on me and make sure I’m doing ok when they know I’ve got a lot on my plate.

I feel so fortunate to have so many positive and wonderful people in my life.

Finally Getting Therapy:

Thanks to the wonderful people at WellbeingScotland I finally have gotten some talk therapy/counselling and I’m over the moon about it.

It’s really helped me to start addressing things that I had kept putting off and tried to convince myself that they weren’t really issues. I feel like I have so much to work through but that I’ve got the space to do it now. It’s really nice and reassuring.

I’m sure I’m forgetting things, this year hasn’t been the easiest to keep track of. It’s felt like the longest March in existence haha.

But I’m hopeful that 2021 will be better. It might not be amazing and we might not quite get back to “normal” but I’m ok with that.

My Hopes For 2021

I hope that I’ll be able to have my wedding in 2021.

I hope that I’ll have my job with Umbrella Lane confirmed/secured for another year in 2021.

I hope that my income will stabilise and I’ll be able to start getting out of debt in 2021.

I hope that I’ll be able to pull together some amazing photo shoots in 2021.

I hope that I continue to grow as a person in 2021.

I hope that my friends and loved ones will be safe and happy in 2021.

I hope the world will become a kinder place in 2021.

What are your hopes for the new year? How has this year been for you?

Be sure to follow me here/on social media to stay up to date with everything I’m getting up to in the new year!

Until then, stay safe & be happy x

Blue’s Mini Holiday with the #GymBae 1st – 3rd Nov 2020

Hello all!

I’ve finally managed to get some time to sit down and tell you about my mini holiday! It wasn’t far from home but it was a much needed break from daily life. It was also a wonderful way to celebrate the first anniversary of one of my partners.

We stayed at the gorgeous and entirely dreamy Alamo Guest House for 2 nights and honestly I was so sad to leave haha. The staff were wonderful. The room was gorgeous. Breakfast each morning was scrumptious! Although I have to say the bath and shower might just be the best things about the Alamo.

Here’s just a few pictures to give you an idea of what it was like.

Of course COVID19 restrictions were still in place so we were a little limited to what we could and couldn’t do. Luckily we managed to find some lovely ways to spend our time.

Including going for afternoon tea in the hidden lane tea room!

We had some delicious treats and lovely tea. I couldn’t help but try their oreo brownie and was not at all disappointed, I even found a new favourite tea – London Fog. It was gorgeously sweet and creamy and went perfectly with the brownie. The cups and tea pots were all so cute as well. It really was a lovely afternoon treat.

One other cool thing about the hidden lane tea room that I wanted to tell you all about was their digital tipping. They were using an app called tipjar which let’s you send a tip straight to the staff with the app, meaning I didn’t have to worry about having cash. Which is especially great right now in the middle of a pandemic where we’re all trying not to touch things other people have touched.

So yeah, it was something small but cool that I wanted to share with people ^_^

The other wonderful thing about the Alamo is that it’s just around the corner from the Kelvingrove Art Gallery & Museum! So of course we went for a visit. I always like visiting the ancient Egypt section, ever since I was younger, not to mention the really cool taxidermy animals they have on display. I was very chuffed with myself when I managed to remember/guess what a few of the birds were.

We didn’t take many pictures whilst we were in. We were more interested in enjoying the pictures and exhibits that were on display.

Getting out for an evening meal was probably the most tricky part of the entire mini holiday. The restrictions meant that restaurants were closing at around 6pm each night and that most of the places were reservation only.

Which would have been fine if we’d realised that in advance…

Fortunately though Pizza Punks had plenty of space for us (we were the only customers for the first 30-40 minutes of being there) and the staff were so friendly. The food was delicious (even though I misread the menu and ordered spicy pulled pork that left me a little warmer than I’d have liked haha) and I’m so glad we went along. Our waitress Sarah even gave us some love hearts when my partner told her it was our anniversary dinner.

The #GymBae and I did get a giggle out of the Tier 3 deal too. For context, part of the COVID restrictions at Tier 3 was that alcohol wasn’t allowed to be sold in restaurants/pubs/etc. So Pizza Punks gave everyone a pizza and an unlimited refill soft drink for £15 as a special Tier 3 deal.

On the final day of the mini holiday we treated ourselves to one last trip to a cafe.

A small super cute cafe called Okashi with Japanese inspired styling was our final treat. They had unicorn cupcakes, hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows, milkshakes that came with a cloud of candy floss on top and so many more adorable sweets. It was lovely.

It was a super cute way to round off the mini holiday and hopefully we’ll get the chance to go back for a second visit some time.

And that’s everything!

It was a super lovely, extremely cute and, much needed, relaxing time away.

With how crazy 2020 has been I can’t even describe how grateful I am that I got to have these few days to relax and unwind. I know I haven’t been the best at keeping you all updated this year but there’s just been so much happening all the time it’s been difficult to keep everything balanced out enough to be able to take the time to sit down and let you all know.

But I’ll be getting my new computer very soon and I’m hoping that will be the push I need to get back on top of my posting schedule. So keep an eye out for (fingers crossed) more regular updates coming soon!

Stay safe & be happy x