Saturday Thoughts – 12.1.19

Hello lovelies,

It’s Saturday and I don’t have much planned other than editing and posting a new #BouncerTheStaffie video to YouTube but I’ve got something on my mind so I figured I’d share it with you. Along with some pictures of dogs to brighten up your day ^_^

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My downstairs neighbour is a grumpy old man that seems to hate everyone and everything. He has a habit of throwing food and other items out of his window which first of all makes a mess of the front of the building – especially the ground floor neighbour’s entrance – but it also means that many of the local pets have been eating the food he’s thrown out.

We had to try and stop Bouncer from gobbling up a frozen burger the other day and only just about managed it. We think he managed to eat a little before we got him to spit it out.

It really gets on my nerves that this guy is just carelessly tossing food out his window.

He knows how many dogs are walked in the area and is aware enough to realise that dogs will usually try and eat whatever food they come across. So it’s almost malicious really.

My ground floor neighbour was telling me she woke up to find boiled eggs had been dropped in front of her door but that they were so mushed up it was really difficult for her to clean it up. That along with the cigarette ends he usually drops that she has to try and clean up before letting her dog out. It’s rude and awful and I’m so mad about it.

But there’s virtually nothing we can do about it so here I am ranting to the internet haha.

Oh well, in happier news there’s going to be a new dog video uploaded to my channel very soon, so keep an eye out for that ^_^

My YouTube Channel

 

Birthday!

Hey all ^_^ tomorrow is my birthday! I’m very excited to get my birthday month underway properly haha.

As part of my birthday celebrations I organised some super fun photo sets which I will be posting on OnlyFans and Patreon. There’s balloons, string, tea cups, teddy bears, candles and party hats!

It’s honestly been so much fun to put together and I can’t wait for you to see them all, I’m so excited that I’m even going to give you this brilliant preview image from the first set “Balloons and String” which was shot by Radiomoths (make sure you go check him out).

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Preview 1 from “Balloons and String” by Radiomoths

So if you want to help me celebrate my birthday then make sure you sign up to get access to my super fun birthday sets ^_^ Or just leave a nice comment wishing me a happy day. Send me kitten videos or something haha.

But as it’s my birthday and I’ve survived another year I figured it would be a good time to sit and think about what’s changed in my life. How have I grown?

My confidence has increased exponentially since I was younger – there is no power in the verse that can stop me now haha. But honestly with each year I’ve slowly built up my confidence and my ability to ignore the opinions of strangers or people that I’m not close too. It’s been so freeing – I can do things I enjoy and not cringe if it’s something a little odd or something not aimed at me. I can try new fashion styles and see if I like them rather than if other people do.

I’ve gotten better at posing haha although it’s still something I need to work on. I’m really proud with how far I’ve come. Looking at my early shoots and then my more recent ones it’s so painfully obvious that I had no idea what I was doing haha. But thanks to practise and working with other models – like Jazzebell_ – I’ve really improved.

So here’s hoping that I continue to improve and that for my next birthday I can add being a suicide girl to my list of achievements ^_^

Let’s recap, shall we

Hey all!

We’re just about to leave 2018 behind and venture into 2019, it’s an exciting and terrifying time so before we go let’s have a quick look back at 2018.

January

I turned 22! My birthday party was vaguely pokemon inspired and was held in my favourite cafe (which is now closed). Some useless info for you: some of my favourite pokem are, Oddish, Glaceon and Pumpkaboo. 

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It was a good start to the year, even if it was little bit quiet. My next birthday might be a little bigger but we’ll have to see how things turn out.

 

February

Vero had a burst in popularity but turned out to be nothing fantastic. But my friend did have another awesome house party where I had a fabulous time and stole people’s accessories to take silly selfies.

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March

I chopped off about half of my hair! (spoilers, it’s basically grown back now)

 

 

April

I crashed my friend’s office party that was drag race themed, went to my first Torture Garden and of course went through to Edinburgh for the Beltane Fire Festival. Jazz and Lee came to stay for a few days and we got loads of great photos. 

 

 

May

MerMay! I had a go at doing some themed outfits/makeup but didn’t really manage to keep up with one a day. Maybe next year, haha. I had one of my wisdom teeth pulled – ouchie. I got to be a part of “Team Murder Wedding” at my LARP, which was so much fun. I launched my kickstarter to fund my first Suicide Girls photoshoot.

 

 

June

The long awaited ears and tail set arrived! I was published in a magazine for the first time, alongside the wonderful @jazzebell_ the shoot was so much fun and I’m so glad the pictures were chosen to be published.

 

 

July

Entered #AMOTY2018 and successfully passed the audition stage. I got to play an ice giant at my LARP but then my leg got stuck in one of the stilts so I had to be cut free…exciting times haha. I had my first ever nude shoot x3 

 

August

I went to my first Fringe show – Notflix! It was really good fun and I just wish I had managed to go and see more shows but there’s always next year. Bouncer the Staffie joined our little family!

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September

Patreon suspended my account. I had my photo shoot for my first Suicide Girls photo set!

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October

The spookiest of months! I managed to put together a fun red riding hood costume and got some super fun photos. I also got to see one of my favourite bands live (finally) – Three Days Grace was phenomenal live and I’m desperate to see them again in the future. It was also Bouncer’s birthday! He turned 2 and got all dressed up in a pumpkin jumper and a party hat ^_^

 

 

November

#AMOTY2018! Who could forget this chaos haha. I went to Bristol for the first time and had a great weekend with my friend, we even got to go to the zoo. 

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December

 

Christmas! So many awesome photo shoots! I got a little political on the 17th (International Day To End Violence Against Sex Workers) and got almost 300 views on my blog! Likely due to the fact that I had posted some nsfw pictures in my blog post. Had a tarot reading for the first time. Got published for the second time!

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Looking to the Future

Lots happened this year, there were things I wish I had planned better or things I missed out on because life just threw too many curve balls for me to keep up with. So next year I want to try and be more prepared – I say that as I sit here with my brain full of cotton wool and no idea what I’m doing next.

But I have so many ideas.

I want to keep up with all the alt models I met at AMOTY, I want to work with them all and do fun social things but things like that require a fair amount of time and energy, which I’m not sure I’ll have spare. Guess we’ll find out.

I’m also planning to get more themed shoots prepared ahead of time so I can have loads of fun content for things like Valentine’s day, Easter, Beltane, Halloween, etc. I might even look at putting together a calendar! But that might be a 2020 project.

The main aim will be to continue growing my fanbase and to continue increasing my subscribers over on my OnlyFans so that I can continue to model as a career not a hobby.

I am also considering dipping back into cosplay as I know that would make some great photo sets but no promises xD

So thanks for sticking with me throughout 2018, I hope the new year brings you great things. For now I’m off to work then on to a party x

 

Day of the #tumblrpurge

*** Please note this post contains pictures which are NSFW ***

Hello all, today is the 17th of December 2018. Some will only think of it as being eight days until Christmas however some will know it as the day of the tumblr “purge”. Others will also recognise it as being the International Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers (#IDEVASW) – the irony is not lost on the users of the internet.

 

Some quick background info in case you haven’t heard about this until now. Tumblr recently was removed from the Apple app store due to having had content flagged as being against their guidelines. In response to this Tumblr decided to ban all adult content and get back in Apple’s good books. Please note I have over simplified and shortened drastically for the sake of trying to keep this post at a somewhat reasonable length. If you want to read more about the purge and the events leading up to it then check out these articles: A, B, C .

 

This purge will have a drastic effect on the Adult community – especially Adult content creators (artists, sex workers, erotica writers, etc.).

 

In response some users have decided to stage an online protest. These users will log off from tumblr for the entirety of the 17th and continue to post on other sites (Facebook, Twitter,Instagram…) saying that the purge is a terrible idea and will not solve anything. After all, the porn bots (blogs operated by robots that are posting pornographic content and sending spam messages often containing viruses) have already begun to adapt to tumblr’s algorithm which is supposed to filter out and remove adult content (nicknamed “censorbot” by many users). Meaning that this purge will likely be completely pointless by the time it’s over and will have incorrectly flagged – probably – thousands of perfectly safe content which will take months to sort through although I’ll be surprised if they bother to.

 

So why should we care if Tumblr is getting rid of porn? Why am I so mad that sex workers lives are being made harder? Why am I making such a fuss? It’s not like this protest will do anything – right?

 

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Photo by @radiomoths – Shirt reads “Empower Women” and is worn under a red jumpsuit

 

First of all this type of blanket censorship is terrifying. It’s all too easy for them to come in and remove anything they don’t agree with. Yes this could be used for good – we could get rid of all the white supremacy posts, the neo-nazi posts and the transphobic posts. We could remove hateful content from our sites and make the internet a slightly nicer place. Instead we’re reverting back to archaic ideas of sexuality and sexual expression. Where nudity is banned but racism is rampant.

 

Not to mention that sexual education resources (especially for those identifying as LGBTQA*) are being flagged and removed by censorbot. So it’s not just porn. It’s educational resources that some people would struggle to access otherwise.

 

But let’s forget that. Let’s just focus on the porn.

 

We all agree that we don’t want children being exposed to porn. So we put safeguards in place to prevent that from happening. Users tag their content, block underage users and do their best to ensure their content isn’t being consumed by minors.

 

The problem tends to be untagged content, porn bots and illegal content (but obviously that’s a problem that’s a separate topic).

 

There are ways to prevent minors from interacting with adult content that doesn’t involve deleting all of it. Systems could be put in place that automatically block flagged content from appearing on a minors account. Age verification is a thing after all. Tumblr could have a dedicated team going through content to make sure it’s tagged and not illegal (which to be honest feels like something they should already have). I’m sure there are plenty of alternatives but of course they would all require Tumblr to put in some actual effort, which would cost them money which of course they don’t want to do, so here we are…

 

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Photo by @radiomoths 

 

Earlier I mentioned that one group of users in particular – sex workers – would be affected by this purge. This likely caught your attention. So let’s talk about that.

 

As today is International “Day to End Violence Against Sex Workers” day it only makes sense that we talk about them.

 

First of all: I am a sex worker.

 

I sell adult content that I make either by myself or as part of a photo shoot in order to make a living.

 

Sex Work varies from selling nudes to doing cam work or offering “full service” (escorting). Sex workers can be any gender, any age(over 18), any race, any sexuality and can come from any background.

 

Many people get into sex work as a way to be able to make a living despite having disabilities, mental health issues or they might just have ran out of other options. Some people get into sex work because they enjoy it! They find it fun and stimulating. They see it as a way to empower themselves. It’s all very personal and I can pretty much guarantee their least favourite question to answer but most commonly asked is “so what made you get into this?”.

 

The legality of sex work varies on the services offered and the location of the worker, so you’d have to check your own laws for more info on that side of things.

 

However many countries have criminalised sex work in some way – this is usually full service sex work and not the “lower” level sex work (cam shows, etc). By criminalising sex work many individuals are forced to work in dangerous conditions with no safety guards in place. Authorities argue that they are doing this to prevent trafficking and “help” sex workers despite the fact that sex workers have been petitioning for decriminalisation for years.

 

This is a very in depth topic to cover and I am trying to keep things brief so if you’re interested in finding out more about sex work and the continuing fight for decriminalisation then I recommend you check out: x,y,z.

 

But getting back to the point of my rambling, Tumblr – until now – was a safe space that sex workers could use to post and promote their content. It provided them with an audience and a community. One of the last “mainstream” platforms available to them. Seeing as Instagram deletes adult content along with their accounts on a fairly regular basis. Even Twitter isn’t entirely safe, many accounts that post adult content end up “shadow banned” and have their content hidden from searches.

 

With Tumblr no longer being an option many are unsure where to turn. The community will likely survive and settle somewhere else but some will find December to be an especially hard month – their income is likely to be at risk with the uncertainty of whether their audience will make the effort to follow them elsewhere or if they’ll just vanish into the void.

 

As a further note to it being #IDEVASW you may have seen my posts encouraging people to wear red as a sign of solidarity with sex workers. You might not have. If you want to do more that just put on a red top or scarf then you should definitely check out these charities which directly support sex workers and fight for their rights:

 

UglyMugs

NSWP

Scot Pep

ECP 

SWARM Collective 

 

Or you could be even more direct and give money to a sex worker! Buy their content or donate to them. I promise if you’re sincere about wanting to get money to them they’ll give you multiple ways to do it.

 

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Photo by @radiomoths

 

So by this point you’re probably either bored of my rant or ready to join the fight (I hope it’s the latter). Or at the very least I hope I’ve made you curious enough to go and do your own research and come to your own conclusions.

 

Some people will likely point out that my protest against Tumblr won’t work and that the purge will happen and that’ll be the end of it. Maybe they’re right. But if I don’t at least try then I become part of the the problem.

 

With all of the crazy things going on in the world today I can understand why this might not be the top of someone’s priority list but if you can spare a minute, post a status or a tweet, voice your opinion on the matter. It could end up making a difference. Maybe not to Tumblr but maybe to someone in your life that’s scared and not sure what they’re going to do next. Maybe they think the world is against them, they might not feel safe, they might be feeling isolated and demonised. You might just help someone feel a little less alone.
If you’ve made it to the end of this post then thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed the photos haha and hopefully this has left you with something to think about today.

New Photo Sets! – 10.12.18

Wow it’s been a busy Monday, haha. There were 2 brand new photo sets released today!

A cutesy kitten play set was released on my Patreon. Finally showing off my competition outfit that I wore for #AMOTY2018.

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Preview Image from “Competition Kitten” Photo Set by 7/10 Photography

Then over on my OnlyFans there was a slightly more sensual photo set which I’m pretending comes across as being seasonal because the lingerie is red-ish.

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Preview Image from “Holiday Season” photo set by 7/10 Photography

Both photo sets were shot by 7/10 Photography a fantastic photographer that I always enjoy working with. He’s the fantastic individual behind my “Bed and Milk” photo set as well as the “Elegant Xmas” photo set from last year. Well worth checking out the rest of his work if you get the chance.

And you’ll be delighted to hear there are a couple more sets on the way from 7/10 Photography, so you’ll be seeing a lot of his work in the future: especially if you’re lucky enough to be subscribed to either of my sites x

But if you can’t commit to a subscription don’t worry you’ll still get to see a few teaser images spread out across my social media pages. It’s a bit like a treasure hunt, hee hee ^_^

That’s all for now but keep an eye out for more fun new things coming soon!